Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Blooded Emotions

Rohit was indifferent to the passing big storm around the park where he used to spend his loneliness as this storm didn’t count very much in front the hurricane that had erupted volcanoes in his life sabotaging each of his emotions and feelings. It was getting harder for him to breathe in the air full of deceit, treachery and perfidy. His tears couldn’t stop when he remembered all those harsh betrayals he faced from the ones he loved and trusted most.


Rohit, a simple yet ambitious young boy twenty two years in age had lost his mother a couple of years ago in a brutal car accident. He still remembers crying like he couldn’t stop when his mother was in the final stages of her life. When the doctors told him that she had embraced demise Rohit kept looking and hugging for some time forgetting everything after which he went unconscious. He was so close to his mother because no one in his family understood more than her. His father, a rich, arrogant and stubborn businessman, never had time to share with him and his mom in all those years. On the day of the accident too he only appeared in the hospital after his wife had died. 


Since his early childhood Rohit hated his father but it was due to his mom that he never showed his anger against him. He can never forget the final words of his mother to him, “ Rohit, my baby, I understand you have disliked your father ever since you grew up, but still if possible; for my sake never show your angriness against him. He never gave time to me as well but I don’t have any complains for him and I would like you to get along too. If you can’t be good with him, don’t be bad behaved with him either ok.” She continued, “You have found such a great companion in Shalini who loves you so much. Always take care of her and keep following the lessons that I have taught you. You are a great son, I am sorry from my heart that I could never bring the love of your father to you.” “Please mom, don’t say that, you are indeed the best mom in the world” Rohit murmured and both started crying. Then Shalini slowly kept her hands in Rohit’s shoulder. The moment after that was so emotional when his mom took Rohit and Shalini’s hands together and started choking. Rohit left hastily to call the doctor but when he came back with the doctor everything was finished and his mom had left the world.


As time passed by Rohit decided to take care of his mom’s final words by getting along in his life with Shalini and leaving his father with his own life. Shalini, his classmate for a year proposed him a couple of months before his mother’s accident. Though he was also attached to her during their togetherness he decided to agree her proposal only after asking his mom. His happiness was most important to his mom so she agreed easily thus making way for both of them to be in a relationship.


But it was only three months after his mom’s accident when Rohit was still trying to come to his normal life after the biggest mishap of his life; one day Shalini shockingly said an unbelievable thing to her, “Rohit I know you will be annoyed to hear this but I have to tell you. We will be in a relationship but not through our marriage.” “What do you mean Shalini?” He interrupted. “I am not marrying you Rohit. Indeed I am marrying your father in a month from now.” Shalini didn’t speak after saying those brutal lines. The land below Rohit looked displaced to him, he quivered, “Do you understand what are you saying Shalini? This is not possible. I mean how, Shalini you can’t be true”  “That’s the truth Rohit, if you don’t believe ask your father about this” Shalini left.


Mr. Vinay Kashyap the man whom Rohit hated most in his life although he was his father had given Rohit another reason to hate him more that day. He went furiously to him, “Dad why are you spoiling my life? How can you marry a girl who is half of your age? I will never accept this relation.” Mr. Kashyap annoyingly rebuffed, “I am not forcing you to accept this relation. I will do whatever I want. Shalini and I love each other. You can do whatever you want. You are living in my money Rohit. Do you understand that?” Rohit had to say the final words before leaving, “I don’t want your money Mr. Kashyap. Though I had promised mom that I will get along with you but today I am going to break her promise for her own sake. Mr. Kashyap you are no more my father from today. Yes from this moment you are dead for me Mr. Kashyap.” He had said the final words to Shalini too who was with his father that moment, “When Mr. Kashyap can deceive me, who are you not to?”


After that day life became harder for Rohit to live in that city. So he decided to shift himself to another and start life all over again. He always felt that his mom would be observing him from heavens so he wanted to see her happy. He knew she would be happy by knowing that her son was trying to overcome all those harsh betrayals given to him and to fight against all the struggles that were around him. Time passed by healing the wounds.


But it was only today’s morning when everything again changed brutally for Rohit when he happened to find his father’s file between the pack of his files. He tried to remember how that file got to him. When he was leaving his father’s home along with his important study materials he had decided that he would not leave any of his memories in that home. That file was near the medicinal files of her mom in her bedroom. He opened that file slowly.


In the first page there were some phone numbers, in the second page he found a note like, “ACCIDENT OF MY WIFE MUST TAKE PLACE IN AUGUST 20th” At first he couldn’t realize what was the matter, but in no time he realized that his father would take notes regarding the dates of some important business meetings because he had a habit of forgetting in case he didn’t note. Rohit couldn’t believe, his eyes remained opened but he was still confused of what was the situation. He turned the next page with so many questions and emotions running all over his mind. The final page was a short letter which read like this.


My love Shalini,
I know that you and me are still separate and you have to act being in love with my son. But now the chapter will close soon as my wife will get an accident in 10 days from now. I have made every arrangement of that. Your and my way will be clear after that.
Ur’s Vinay


Rohit was still not able to believe that his father had killed his mother just for being together with the bitch Shalini. He repeatedly went through the file again and again. Finally, he sat in the chair near to him just emotionless, shocked. He had known the most brutal truth of his life which left him blank; just blank for those moments. Then his feet automatically took him to the park nearby where he would find a way to ease his loneliness.


He sat almost a day there emotionless, blank in every way. Finally as something went through all over his heart body and face just when the evening was showing up, he stood up firmly, took his head up and looked in the sky. He knew somewhere in heavens his mother was listening to his soliloquy, “Mom I can’t let go the person who killed you. Had you not said the words to me before you left the world I would have killed dad myself today. But I don’t want to make myself evil by killing him because I have to live for you and your expectations which always want to see me ahead in my life in everything. But I promise mom I won’t sleep from now till I get dad and that bitch Shalini behind the bars and make sure that they get the punishment of what they did to you. I promise you mom.”


He then slowly but firmly headed towards the police station to submit the file including all proofs against his father and Shalini. 

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

In the same road again

Life has taken Aman in the same road yet again but amazingly he can't even speak of it to anyone around him as no one will understand him and his scattered emotions. He himself never expected it to happen. Why do they say that what a person longs for in life is actually present for him to achieve. He knows he will never get what he expects now. Oh the road is all the same, it's just that time has traveled across a couple of vital years now. The years where he lost someone, his heart broke into scatters, he was almost drowned somewhere along the brutal pathways of the melodrama, yet he found that there was someone holding his hands strongly to let him survive, to teach him to live even if the worst phases of life are examining him.

Whenever Aman tries to look back at the years of his intimate friendship with Anjali all his memories get hurt brutally as soon as he feels for the worst day in their togetherness. The day when everything went wrong and the big wall of misunderstanding filled all its bricks in between their feelings. He is still not able to find the reason why Anjali didn't accept to get along with him when he shared to her that he felt he was in love with her. He got in such deep tears that day when Anjali was so arrogant to say that she never felt that way for him and that she took him only as a friend. She could have at least thought seriously about him instead of that she replied instantaneously about the rejection. However, Anjali then got along with her life as a happy girl indifferent of the scattered heartbeats of Aman without even thinking that he would be hurt frantically. His tears never counted to a girl, for stopping the tears of whom he could even dare to fight against the toughest struggles. A girl whom he supported and encouraged so much throughout their years of friendship during her good and bad times, whom he shed all tears and kept fighting to make her smile had continued her travel leaving him all alone. He could't believe Anjali would leave him and his friendship alone in such a boisterous path. A bosom friendship in the past got hanged up just because Aman went ahead to propose Anjali.

Aman wasn't hurt more by her denial than the way Anjali said to him that she believed in him and his friendship, however, she got shocked by the way he shared his feelings. Now she would never believe that girl and boy can share a bond of friendship only regardless of what Aman was feeling. Why was that Aman's tears never mattered to her especially after all the special moments they shared together during their years of friendship? Aman still tries hard to find the answer.

Yet Aman found a way to come out of all the depressions and move on in life, credits to Gunjan for the giving him company and encouraging him to move along in spite of such a big mishap in his life. Gunjan took care of his hurt emotions and gave him company during the worse days of his life. She made him understand that even if Anjali left him alone he is a person of such high calibers that he would reconcile with Anjali instead of separating her all away from his life. It was Gunjan who brought his smile back again in his face.She understood all of his good and bad phases and filled him with courage to struggle. It was all due to Gunjan which enabled Aman to take the positive side of happenings, she told him that friends are never wrong its only the condition which is wrong at times.

But still Aman has ambivalent emotions to fight with to get along in the travel. He seems he can't trust anyone totally because of what happened with him yet somewhere he hopes that whole friendship can't be pointed out to be bad just by one doomed incident in life. Life still has so many prospects and friendship for him was always the best one. Confessed that he was hurt badly on one hand by someone whom he trusted more than himself, on the other hand he has friends like Gunjan who are always with him in his struggles. She won't leave him even if time is worst for him.

Aman tries hard to find positive vibes in this baffled thoughts of struggles for searching true friends. He is still in the same road where he has to make the most important decision of his life to whether to forgive friends who hurt him so much or to leave them with their life making a step forward.